What is keeping you sane right now during Isolation?
Prescription anxiety meds and CBD oil.
What were you doing before isolation?
I was working alot, had my personal training business going.
I had a really busy schedule and in between I was just doing my physical therapy and working shifts at a restaurant.
And now?
I was working out loads. I've hurt my neck now so I don’t have that so much as a distraction anymore.
I’ve been trying to finish my nutrition qualification online, teaching some lessons online, watching alot of tv. I also have been doing lot of yoga, and it helps me feel alot of peace. I've had loads of time to work on my music and I started a new album to process my feelings during all of this.
At the end of the now how do your feelings differ now compared to before lockdown.
Now at the end of my day I feel specifically stressed about sleeping If i'll manage to fall asleep. There is alot more space and time for some of my obsessive compulsive thinking.
"Before I had this huge fear of missing out. I was working all day and so busy and while that was a distraction from a lot of my thoughts, and I felt I was never wasting time it also had me thinking if this was all worth it if i missed out on everything around me."
Has the lockdown and isolation changed your mindset in any way?
Definitely in a big way. I’m kind of awestruck now about the sense of community i feel and never have before. I have come to the revelation that we are all one.
Every single person is having the same feelings and fears.
"For once we are all in sync - The burdens of our social responsibility , finances, loved ones, productivity."
I for the first time feel like i’m part of a community on this Island. I feel like I am part of the people
"I have the desire, to help, to support, to talk to others and hear how they’re doing and feeling."
Additionally the realisation of the reality of death and dying has made
me re-evaluate alot what is going on inside me. Alot of things I have carried, never shared or told anyone.
I feel we all have dark thoughts, that's just the reality, I’m not taken aback my these thoughts of mine, I just feel a bit more awakened by them. Until now if I died It would be dying this fake person. This person who is not fully real and genuine and holds back.
"There is no fear of dying just the fear of what do I do with all the things I haven’t said."
Do you think this new mindset will remain when the lockdown is lifted?
I think it will remain, because I did used to think about it all the time. But now the the reality of death hangs over me in a different way. I want to keep the mindset
I always felt how finite life is , it was a more fearful though then, but now I have a healthier sense of it.
"I used to think alot of money and providing for myself and my mum. This has all made me realise the cliche of you don’t get to take any of that with you. You only are left with who you were."
You impact people everyday and you don’t even realise. Ive been in touch with people i haven talk to people in along time.
"We have a maximum impact on every person we come across in life, in every interaction and its our choice on what impact that is."
What been your least favourite thing about Isolation
It’s just me. Who I am and how i think and the thoughts that run wild and the things that I’ve dealt with.
"Theres not escapism for me so this could be the perfect time for self improvement. Its either that or go crazy or delve too deep into my psyche."
What has been your favourite thing?
"Theres no fear of missing out which used to think and feel alot. Im forced to just rest."
Theres no escapism for me but at the same time i finally get to rest, to recover.
Alot has also changed with my family in the past year so now I also get so much quality time with just my mum.
Find Josh's new music project he's been working on while under the Covid-19 Lockdown 'The Times I Spent Outside'